After the Dr.

Well in the last two days I have seen two Dr's. The first one made me feel rotten by telling me to suck it up and go to physio and than get back to work and it didn't matter if I was in pain or not. But my Dr said do physio and wait to see if I can go back to work. I also might have to have an operation which makes me scared but I know that my God is bigger and he will make a way for me.

I might have a different job opportunity so I am waiting to see if it is one I should even think about. My friend is running a nanny agency and wants me to help run it. I think I would like to do it, as part of the time I would be home and only have to work some nights to meet families and bring nannies to the families. But I need to work out details first. so I am just praying to see what I should do.

Last night we had some people here from Sanctuary House of Prayer explaining what they are all about and found it very interesting. I love the fact that it is all for an audience of One.The One who matters the most in my live. We are going to go early on Sunday so we can see what it is like. we wonder if the two old people will handle it for a whole afternoon.

yuck

Been off work now for 13 months and am tired of the wondering what is up. It could be so easy to go to the dark place and stay there. I hate! Yes hate the uncertainty of what will happen. so many good things have happened since the move but this one is not good as of yet. I just had my second cortisone shot and it does not seem to be working. The first one in my leg did nothing and so the Dr. said we will now do one in your tailbone. Wonderful! Not! I am a big baby when it comes to pain in my back.Now this one is doing nothing except now I have more pain in my back and the leg is still numb.So I wait two weeks and go to see the Dr. and from there we will see what is up. He said maybe operation on the back. This scares me.

I love my job and wonder if I will every get there again.If I don't go back to work soon I will have to take some other courses to keep my mind busy so I don't think about my back. So all I can do is take it to the Lord and rely on Him to give me strength to get through.

Today is one of those days where I feel the pull very strong to go to the dark place and hide.But I know that the Lord is bigger and instead I will run to Him.

I made Jim hold me and let me cry I told him there is nothing you can fix so just let me have my cry.He did. I love that man so much cause he puts up with me when I get like this. I don't even want to put up with me when I am like this. It comes in waves and maybe it is good as it washes away like the tide.

Time flies

Well it is hard to believe we have been in our new house almost 5 months and so much has changed. We built a new deck, are getting new windows and bought a brand new bedroom suite and stuff for our living room. Which might not be a big deal for any one else but for us this is huge.We have never had new stuff, before mostly second hand which was fine but now it is the time for us to have new. We have been in a bad place the last few years and the Lord has brought us out of it. He has blessed us so very much even in the middle of the stuff we where going through. Without Him we would not be here, not only in our new house but with each other.Thirty years this year thank you Lord!

One of the hardest things this summer was my mentor and best friend went Home to be with the Lord and I miss her a lot. She was like a mom to me and was there whenever I needed a slap to keep on track with the Lord.I try not to cry as I know that she is at peace but some times when I need to hear " stop navel gazing and keep your eyes on the prize" I remember I don't have her to share with any more, and I cry. When two people you love go home in less than a year it is hard. Allan and Carol will both be missed.

When summer started we went to SHOP and the Lord spoke to us that more change was coming and we should walk in what He has for us. While we both are saying yes to Him in whatever He wants for us. This is very exciting for me as I see my husband growing in the Lord in a new way.

My little granddaughter is 9 months old now and starting to stand up so by Christmas time she should be walking/running, she is very happy and Dawn is one blessed mom.

I have been off work a year now and am tried of it, if I am off any longer I will have to start another course of some kind just to keep my sanity. I have now had two shots in my back to see if they will help with the pain and inflammation. the first one did nothing and so now I have done number two, this one was in the tailbone into the spine. so I am praying it works as the Dr. said if it did not than off to surgery. which to be honest scares me! But I know that the Lord is with me and will keep me strong.