Monday, September 17, 2007

Safe

Well my daughter is safe for now, as she is back at her old foster home. I really hope it works for the next few months. It is really hard as she is 18 soon and than she is out on her own. That is hard as she is not ready to be on her own. I know that as much as I care she can't come home, as she doesn't want to follow the guidance from us, no, not just us anyone. So she is choosing a hard road when we all say go the easy way. I hope and pray for her every day that she will see how serious it is when she just wants to party all the time. Nothing wrong with it, but you need balance.
Funny I can relate to her, but know that you have to be responsible for what you do and stop blaming others for things in your life. I think we give others way to much credit for what we do wrong in our lives. I also believe there comes a point when you have to take back the power we give to others. I try really hard not to let others give me their baggage about me. A few weeks ago I went to a wedding in my family and it was funny how I went right back to feeling 15 around those people. Than I realized they had no power over me and that person who I was when I was stupid and young was gone, and they all made mistakes too. So than I felt better.
I also know that they all made comments about my daughters and how they would have handle the situation but not one of them offered help when we needed it, or lived here when all the crap was going on. Years ago my mom told me to tell a certain person in our family that they should clean off their own doorstep before they come clean mine. It is like the bible verse where Jesus tells the people to take the log out of their own eye before they take the splinter out of the other person.
Oh well so much for my mutterings for today.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Finally finished

Well I finally finished another assignment for my course. Only 7 more to go and two exams. Thank God the other course has no exams and I only have two more assignments to go there. A word of advice if any one even reads this, stay in school and finish your dream when you are not working. Doing it Distance Ed is hard.
The story of my daughter continues: as of Tuesday no one has heard from her or even knows where she is. All I can do is pray that she is save. She knows everything and yet knows nothing. Where I on the other hand know nothing, except that I have a Father in Heaven who loves me. Which is alot to know.I remember thinking I knew everything and than I got older and realized that I have alot of experience but it doesn't mean I know every thing.
My baby girl was here on Tuesday night and we had a great visit. She is doing really well in the new home and seems happier. Now if only the other one would find the same safety.
Oh well that is all for now as I must get eady to go to DR. Have a great day and peace to you.